zg_shadows | Feb. 25th, 2007

why me?
its a simple question but so many levals of answers, its better to be more posific with the question.
why me right now?
no this still is not working, its to broad with out a story to put it into and as i now seam to have time to think about storys.

hi i`m ivy. yes i know you know me and the bright, bouncy, young one. i have a small problem that came about when i followed my orders a little to well and aquired taint. yes it took them a little time to convince me to give up the blood for the check but my lady has tought me to be carefull. i understand that i need help. but befor that i still have duitys, people to let know things to do. hell whos going to run the bizzness?
yes i freeked out, yes i lost my bounce, yes i amd bloody skaired.
i blame cara, she must have informed my lady. hell half the esbbat knew, i was deseazed.

still i was working for the good off the pack, to walk away, no demond is using me as a bloody skrying tool. why then come back? she could have been hurt, taken or posesed. no my lady looks at me. she is good one looks tells me every thing. suddenly i am the bad child and mummy has come to make it better. only better comes in horid form and i`m not strong enought to run away from cara. do i realy want to?

they have delt with me now the stunned look of shock mixed with betrail is frozzen on my face. eyes forced to watch from my cell as the world moves. i am locked in hear alone with my thoughts.
was i realy that bad a child?
was i realy that stupid?
why was her eyes so....?
what will happen now they have gorn?

i am.... i am....

*a single blood tear drops*