Megan update...

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( So MattMatt can call me a cow again. :p )

paths

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there are some paths we are forced to walk.
there are some paths we fear to walk.
there are paths we need to walk.
there are paths we hope to walk.

four ways to turn, four directions to look, four posable ivys and only one is right, only one will let me live, only one way to go.
i had my night of rage. yes me little miss cool, carm and controled. i had my night of stupid and utter unthinking maddness. i had my night of weekness.

now its time to gather up, reasess and pull a fuckking rabit out my ass.
caine dont give you mircles, but i might just need one for this mess.

so which path to chose. i know what my heart wants and my mind and for once they agree. i know what my sect needs, the large sabbat famoly of london.
mab took carah from the blades and i know it stung. so will they take me.
hell from the outside they look nice. but then all well formed packs do. not like our motly bunch. how the hell can mab think i can potect her and the others, i`m week and flawed. ok lets not even aproch the taint problem.

i need to lose my humanity, but i dont want to be cold like so many of the old ones. like mab, like vadimear, like god so many... able to kill with out blinking. i thought i had given that up, that there was other ways. but no the killer still sits in me. not the one where you need to find food. oh i got over that in my first year. no the killer that makes me cold.

tonight i pick, tonight i walk, tonight.......tonight.......