What's the Point? [Depressive Werewolf Tat]

[adze.livejournal.com]

I came up with the plan to save the world. I organised the people who came, and pulled in every ally I could. The Nation didn't come, so I turned to those who would. I led them to Scar, in the attack on the factories. I brought Scythe to them, and I'm responsible for what the Ratkin did.

I was in charge, I lead the attack, I'm responsible for what happened. We saved the world. I saved the world.

But...

I'm responsible for millions of deaths. For the destruction of cities the world over, for the loss of lives, livliehoods and the whole way of life. The bodies I've seen on the streets are bodies I might as well have killed myself.

And for what? The world goes on. The spirits mark me an Elder. But the Nation will probably kill me for the allies they forced me to choose, and the person who was on my mind the whole time, the one who I'd have done all this for on her own, hates me now for what I've done.

So what was the point? Feels like I've lost more than I can bear. Like everything I've done was for nothing. So why try anymore?

Comments

[twicedead.livejournal.com]

The Black Spiral Dancers will always recognise you as an Elder of the Garou. You lead the charge that saved the world. Our kin that died, the things we lost, we would gladly give that and more to save the mother.

[lanfykins.livejournal.com]

You do the job in front of you. And you do it well, because it's all you got left.

Whatever made you think any of us would see our brave new world? </Sulien>

<Aken Brain>

[portilis.livejournal.com]

Thing is, you're not responsible.

Yes, you're responsible for anything you lead people to do whilst they are following the plan. You're not responsible for people doing things that have nothing whatsoever to do with the intended mission. There was no necessity for him to call the ratkin to aid us in completing what we were doing - we were barely breaking a sweat collectively against what we were facing, and could quite easily have completed the mission without them. He acted outside the parameters we set, and what he did is his responsibility, not yours. You can only take responsibility for the actions of yourself and those who follow your commands, which he didn't.

Myself, I'm torn on things. I dislike what Scythe did for the loss of life it caused, but I like the fact that a realm dedicated to corruption is no more.

Re: &lt;Aken Brain&gt;

[adze.livejournal.com]

I was in charge, I am responsible.

That's what being in charge means.

Re: &lt;Aken Brain&gt;

[portilis.livejournal.com]

Only if the people you're in charge of accept your leadership and don't go off doing entirely their own thing that has nothing to do with what is being attempted.

Re: &lt;Aken Brain&gt;

[portilis.livejournal.com]

To put it another way - if we'd gone out, and halfway through the mission I'd turned around and killed one of those of Corruption who was assisting, would you have regarded yourself as responsible for my doing so?

The situation with Scythe taking it upon himself to change the mission parameters is exactly the same from an aspect of who is responsible.

Re: &amp;lt;Aken Brain&amp;gt;

[adze.livejournal.com]

You didn't, so I don't know.

I brought Scythe, therefore it's my fault. In my opinion, which right now is the only one that matters, I'm as guilty as he or the Ratkin are.

<Corax Brain>

[mapp.livejournal.com]

It's good that you've taken responsibility. Well, perhaps, not good for you in the long-run, there's going to be a lot of angry people. But, for what it's worth, and it might not be worth that much, opinions are pretty cheap, but you're doing the right thing to take responsibility.

What happened was bad. Really bad. As in millions dead bad. It was like a natural disaster, most of the people caught up in it could do little but stand there and get torn apart. Or violently dismembered. Or set on fire, or get trampled to death. Who're the survivors going to blame it on? I mean, we have to blame it on somebody. Blaming the Ratkin, well, that sort of works, but we need an person. An individual. The "fall guy". The guy we'll put up on a pedestal and say, "it was his fault!".

Now it'll suck, badly, for the fall guy. I like you. I don't think you should be the fall guy, but somebody has to be, and it might as well be the person in charge. The crowds don't want to see the footsoldiers executed, because they're just the people doing their jobs. They'll want to see you ridiculed, shamed, exiled and possibly even killed.

But once everyone's got their fill of revenge, and sated their need to, you know, get angry about what's happened, then we can all focus on the great big job of tidying everything up and deciding what we'll do with the world that's been left over. Perhaps it's not the kind of big, angry, glorious sacrifice that you'd like to get to make, but it's an important one.

I guess, what I'm trying to say is, chin up. It'll make you look a lot more noble, and if they are going to execute you so they can satisfy their urge to blame somebody, it makes the job of taking something sharp and pointy to your neck that little bit easier for them.